Nearly Normal (Not)

Right now, I feel as though if I were any more confused, I’d be coming back ‘round to normal and understanding life. Relationships are complicated and unpredictable, and fantasies even more so when they butt up against reality.

Fortunately, I have three days of relative peace starting tomorrow morning. I’ll be heading to Ohio to bring my son home from college, and I really enjoy that long drive and an evening to myself. I’ll be well away from home twelve hours from now and it can’t come quickly enough!

The day after I’m back, I’ll be enjoying a trip to New Haven with friends (one riding with me, one being visited). It’s the friend in the car who is the source of my current (or more correctly, my ongoing) fantasies-colliding-with-reality complications. I want to talk to her about it, but at the same time, I don’t want to talk to her about it for fear of screwing up our friendship.

So confused. So sad. Welcome to my New Normal.